Wednesday Morning With St. Thomas

Dear Diary

This morning was cool and quiet, and Robert's old pickup truck rumbled down the lane right on time. Sister Mary Claire had packed her little Meditation Book again, tucking it under her arm like always, and Mini was already dancing around the porch steps, ready to hop in. As soon as Robert opened the door, she wiggled in first and curled up right between us on the seat.

Sister read today’s meditation aloud while we bumped down the road. It was about the Apostle Thomas—you know, the one they call “Doubting Thomas.” He didn’t believe the other Apostles when they said Jesus had risen. Not until Jesus came right to him and told him to touch His wounds. That’s when Thomas cried out, “My Lord and my God!”

Robert said he always liked that story because it shows how patient Jesus is. He said that Jesus didn’t scold Thomas, even though He could have. Instead, He just gave him what he needed to believe. Sister Mary Claire said that Jesus always comes looking for us when we’re lost—like a shepherd for His little lambs—and that sometimes, we just need to whisper a short prayer like “My Lord and my God” to let Him back into our hearts.

At Mass, Father LeRoy talked about that too. He said Jesus appeared just for Thomas and gave him a second chance because His love is stronger than any of our doubts. I like that. I like thinking Jesus would come back just for one person who needs Him.

This afternoon, after chores, I thought about Thomas while brushing Mini. Sometimes I feel like I mess things up or forget to pray, and I worry if Jesus is mad at me. But today I realized He doesn’t get mad like that. He waits, and He helps, and He gives us faith if we ask.

I said a tiny prayer down by the creek: “Lord, increase my faith.” It felt like a pebble dropping into the water—small, but real.

Evening Prayer
Dear Jesus,
Thank You for loving me even when I get unsure or afraid. Like St. Thomas, I want to believe with my whole heart. Help me say with him, “My Lord and my God.” Teach me to be patient with others too, and to speak kindly when they make mistakes. I want to love You with all my heart and come running to You when I fall.
Amen.

Love,
Kathy